I feel like I am turning into an organic mommy!

I feel like I am turning into one of those mothers that is like I make my own bread. I stay at home. I nurse my kids until they are over a year old and now the latest.. My good friend had her baby in a sling. And I was like hum how does that work for you. She said she really likes it she currently has two other small children 4 and 2 and it is hands free. She does not have to tote around a heavy carrier try to hold on to the stroller and the two other kids. So I in my ingeniousness decided to make my own .. I had a stretchy blanket cut it up sewed it back together and tried it out for the first time today. It was great... we walked Kyra fell asleep on the way home walking it was so cute....=-) So I find a real one on ebay today and it's normally $60 and I got it for $22.50 I was sooo excited. hehe yeah I am an organic mommy!!!

Well I am 30 and it's not to bad!!!

Hey so I am having an awesome birthday... My parents took me to breakfast and my dear husband kept the Chickens. So I got home in the late afternoon and then put the Chickens down for a nap and then going out to dinner and possibly a movie at 5. Yeah so it's been a good day... And since it's my 30th birthday I wanted a cake so Mason and I made one... And I am going to put 30 candles on it hahahah... Anyway it's been a pretty darn good day yeah!!!! Love my honey and my Chickens.

Ahhh.. 30 is creeping closer

Well it's Thursday and on Saturday I turn 30... yes I am very depressed about it. Not like all of a sudden I will look 10 years older but it's much more traumatic not being in your 20's anymore when you have been for the last 10 years. Besides it's like you can't pass for younger you are 30!! 30.. Sigh Oh well I really should not be depressed I was reading online and lots of message boards were saying how 30 is depressing for people who are not married or don't have children. Well I have been married for 10 years and I have two children a 2 year old and almost 1 year old. Well, at least that is done.. LOL

Anyway I plan to have a better day today this morning was still rough ... I am not a morning person and unfortunately my children are so you can see how that can cause a problem. I am a total grump until I get my coffee in me. Ah does not help that we dont' go to bed until 1. Ben and I have gotten into the habit of going to bed so late because it's like once you get the the kids down you don't want to go to bed... Oh well.. It can just be a cycle..... WEll today will be better as 30 creeps closer....

Spread the Wealth aka Socialism

So I just got done watching the debate and I thought that McCain did pretty good. Let's face it though Obama is very slick and a great speaker. This whole thing about him wanting to spread the wealth is just downright scary. I mean it's like when you were in school and you worked really hard you did your homework did not stay out late and party etc and got a very well earned A+ but Sally beside never took notes never did her homework and stayed out late with her friends every night and when it came time to take the test she blew it. And got a D- but the teacher decided to "spread the wealth" and took part of your A+ and gave part of your grade to Sally so now you both get a C+ now that is not fair and it certainly does not motivate Sally to study and work harder because she will get a passing grade anyway. That is how I view this whole spread the wealth and that is called Socialism. Oh well all you can do it Pray... and pray and pray that Obama will has a miss step at every turn. I am praying that McCain will win not because I think he is so great but because honestly Obama scares me to death.

Now the flip side of all this the panic, the recession, the whole mid east thing , terrorism and the fact that we could get Obama... well God is in control and I was thankful for my prayer meeting tonight. I had a very rough day with Mason ahh he was a bear.. Ben had to work late I felt yuck did not feel like going to church getting the kids out by myself. The car needed coolant when we got downstairs but I am so glad I made the effort because it was so refreshing. They were talking about how God is in control... comparing our Faith in God to the Ark .. Noah .. was in the ark But God did not forget about him... Jesus is in God and we are in Jesus and Jesus is in us.. So we just need to focus on him in this storm like Peter did in the storm...

So Frustrated..........

I so sympathize for single parents. Not that I can even really relate.. But this past weekend.... my husband went on a men's retreat so I had my kids for 24 hours by myself and boy was I exhausted when Ben got home....and then on Sunday he was gone for like 3 hours... And then he worked late on Monday night, then had men's Bible study on Tuesday night and then we had church last night... And my patience is just gone with my children... I hate that but Mason sometimes can just push my buttons!!! I hate feeling this way but I yell more I have no patience I am a lot snappier with him and everytime I lash out I feel horrible. Poor little guy!!! I just feel like I need a break and that is so hard sometimes...oh well. I suppose it will get better....

SARAH PALIN YEAH BABY!!!

Love the new VP choice Sarah Palin and all I have to say is that Obama better watch out.... I am addicted to Fox News right now. Enjoyed watching the RNC and the DNC can't wait until the VP debates more then anything..

News flash from Fox News.

South Carolina Democratic chairwoman Carol Fowler sharply attacked Sarah Palin today, saying John McCain had chosen a running mate ” whose primary qualification seems to be that she hasn’t had an abortion.”

That nasty old mean women Carol Fowler. She is an ugly person..I mean literally.. inside and out...

TGIF...

So Ben and I actually got to go out tonight with some other couples with our church yeah!!! It was so nice getting to go out and not have to cut up food or tell someone to sit down please be quite no you can't have that don't wave your knife around. It was just nice... we got to walk downtown get coffee after dinner it was just really nice and on those rare occasions when you actually get away from your children you are so happy to leave to them to just have a breather and you joke oh yeah my kids etc. but at the end of the night when you are on your way to pick them up you are so excited to get your hands on them again and it's only been like 4 hours away from them. And you are so excited to take them home then you realize how much fuller your life is with them. And you are just so in love with them and our honey for giving them to you. =-)

Thursday... yeah!

I feel better today a little more uplifted... it has been a tough week we have had soo much rain and been stuck inside with Mason and his cast. But as I have been going over this week in my mind it has really not been bad we have our routines. Getting up etc Kyra is getting so big and playing so good on the floor she LOVES music which is sooo adorable whenever she gets music to play on one of her toys she will shake her head back and forth like she is going with the tune. It is funny because we have not bought her any toys because since she and Mason are so close in age we already had TONS of toys from him can you say OVERBOARD but it's interesting to see how she plays with some things more then he did. He has this one VTECh toy that he hardly ever played with when he was over a year old and she is already playing with it and not even a year old. I do wonder if the old adage that girls learn faster is true. So then I have to think well I have enjoyed and gotten to see things with her that I never got to see with Mason because I was working... So even though sometimes I get down and sad because I am at home.. and the more I read on the internet about some other stay at home mom's I think getting a little lonely , bored and down just comes with the territory. Well that is the down side the up sides is I have gotten to see Kyra crawl , roll over and pull up for the first time. I would go to pick up Mason from daycare and I had an awesome daycare and they would say oh today he is crawling... So I have it pretty good... =-)

The Election.....

Ahh my husband has had the STUPID Democratic thing on tonight and it's driving me nuts... I can't stand politics I know it's really important and all.... I just can't stand to hear the pure drivel that comes out of their mouths I'm sure you can tell from what I"m writing that I am a Republican... Ug but Bill Clinton was speaking tonight and he had nothing to say but man they were going NUTS I mean NUTS for him..... I mean honestly get over the fact that Barak Obama however you even spell his name is black he has NOOOOO experience none what so ever. Now I don't really like McCain that much honestly but mean it's like great these are our choices but he is sooo much better then Obama.. Now Obama scares the absolute you know what out of me. Oh well all I can do is pray daily that he loses Obama that is and I am.. I have been praying that gas prices would come down and they have ... I need to keep that up.. Like the Bible says nothing with God is impossible. Thank goodness. =-)

Bleh.....

This is kind of how today has been ... It has rained and rained and rained. I love the rain but it has almost been to much. I think it's because I have been cooped up in the house for like the last week and a half. Mason broke his leg a week ago and it has really confined us. It's hard for me to go out by myself with Mason and Kyra. She can't walk and he really can't walk either. He can limp along but is not that stable and walks slow and is super heavy when you have to carry him and Kyra... I just feel blah today oh well I will just chalk it up to the weather but I'm feeling rather like a maid lately.

Monday's

Monday's the dreaded word... The beginning of the week where work or school starts all over again. I remember when I was little I would dread Sunday night because the next morning was School it's not that really the week was so bad once you started it .. it was just the starting of it that was so hard. Then once you start working Monday's are even worse... ahhhhh then you really dread them. But then you have to work and you have kids now that truly sucks. You never feel like you have enough time with your kids when you work and you send them to daycare not to mention you have to get up SOOO much earlier then when it was just you.. You have to make sure that diaper bags are packed lunches are made and if it's a baby that bottles are ready. Then you have to get them all headed out the door to their daycare and be to work by 8..Of course by the time you get to work you are stressed hoping you are not late you have not had your coffee at least I had not I always took it to work with me and you just sat there and stared at your computer for the next 2 hours trying to wake up. And let me tell you I am not a morning person so those awful people you want to throttle first thing in the morning that are like "Good Morning!" I hated people like that because you really had to say "hi" back and I never felt like talking after what I had been through every morning. AHHH But now the flip side. Being at home Monday's mean just that daddy won't be home today and that always makes us sad. But they don't hold the dread they used to at all. Now the struggle is to just get Mason breakfast before I have had my coffee... haha well after looking back at all those Monday mornings I really have nothing to complain about now do I?

I love the .......

Ok so I sit here on my laid back Sunday afternoon and I get to be in charge of the TV for once. ( There is no Nascar Race on this afternoon we always get to watch that...Oh the joy) Anyway so I am watching I love the New Millennium on VH1...why? Because I just love these shows... there was I love the 80's which I don't remember that much of I love the 90's which I do remember and I love the 70's which is just hilarious but I really don't remember.. So anyway you know get hooked on one year and then in the next show it's the next year and you are just hooked and before you know it 3 hours have passed. So loving husband Ben was like um... can like go to Furman and walk around or just do something.. I was like ummm because I really want to finish watching my I love the New Millennium.... I am only on 2003..sigh... He was like you want to finish watching your stupid show huh? I was like well in a little bit maybe. I mean come on he watches cars go around a track over and over and over again EVERY Sunday but I understand. Oh well he just does not share my love of the I love... serious just as I really don't share his love of Nascar......

Sunday Afternoon.....

I love Sunday afternoons.... my husband is home for the weekend and it's just restful and nice. Afternoon naps . It's just a great lazy day....not to mention the great church service we have that morning. We go to an awesome church LifePoint and it only has Sunday morning service which is really nice because the day can truly become a family day of relaxation. I am sitting here blogging while feeding Kyra my 9 month old.. We are all done eating but she is still trucking along.. they just eat slower and have so much fun doing it. So hopefully after she is done we can get her and Mason down for those coveted afternoon naps and Ben and I can rest a little ourselves.

My husband the artist =-)

I am so proud of my husband he is a graphic designer and works for a marketing agency. But he was an artist in high school and he has recently started to paint again. My 2 1/2 year old Mason and I had so much fun sitting in the window of our loft watching my husband put on the finishing touches to his latest painting and here is a picture of it .... I think it's great and I'm so proud of him.... =-)

Ah.... all is quite.

It is so quite and peaceful to have both Chickens in bed and it still be fairly early in the evening. My husband and I don't exactly know what to do with ourselves. It's 9 and they are both in bed quite .....We always try to get them in bed but something always seems to come up and it's always such a production. Brushing of the teeth going potty changing diapers and then I have to nurse the baby girl right before she goes to sleep so it's like a 30 to 45 minute process. It was 10:30 last night and Mason my 2 1/2 year old was still awake in his bed ..... oh he is soo manipulative.. I made cookies late last night and he was like oh my tummy hurts and he wanted bread. So of course his daddy let him have bread and I let him have a cookie. Yeah he's the oldest and a boy we are kind of soft on him. He is just so darn cute and the thing is he knows it too which does not really help much. So he totally uses it against you especially when he puts his little arms around your neck and says " I love you, Mommy". Oh well I am just going to enjoy my quite evening. Hear that......... exactly nothing..... =-)

Being at home ...sigh

So I am a stay at home mom now.... and have been for 5 months and wow it has been quite an adjustment. A lot rougher then I ever thought it would be... I have a beautiful 2 1/2 year old boy and a 9 1/2 month old girl and my little boy just goes non stop. I love him to death but sometimes ahhh I could just scream it drives me nuts the mommy all the time mommy this mommy that. And I get frustrated and irriated then I feel guilty .... I think surely I am the only mother who feels this irritated by her own child. Then when I let him watch tv to keep him occupied because I dont' feel like playing Legos with him then I feel guilty too. I wonder if I am the only one? I am so thankful to get the chance and opportunity to stay home so thankful... but sometimes I miss work sometimes I miss bringing home a paycheck and being able to talk to adults all day long. And not have to deal with poop and pee and snotty noses and the crying and the always mommy mommy mommy mommy. And only one can talk right now soon it will be two.

But then on Monday mornings when I roll over in bed after my husband gets up at 7 and both Chickens are still sleeping and I can go back to sleep for two more hours. It's not so bad.. I just have to push through and try to enjoy these endless days of my two beautiful crazy chickens. LoL I will survive. =-)